Stasis

It’s been months. I am miserably the most inconsistent person you’ll ever meet. I had hoped to write and post more of my stories this year. A lot may have happened but still, I had so much time on my hands. I wonder what happened. 

In my head, all things play out fine. I get to list all the things I ought to do, mentally. But when it comes to reality, all goes down the drain. I am such a failure at times. 

Don’t get me wrong, I maybe sad and angry at myself. Regretful even. That doesn’t mean I should lose hope. It can be really hard and daunting at times, you know. I’ve come to realize this side of myself a long time ago. I quit halfway through something good. I tend to undermine my own skills and talents at times because of the past, that hangs like a huge, dark and heavy chandelier over my head and instead of glimmering crystals, all I see are shards of regret and downfalls. 

I’ve actually decided – multiple times – that I am going to change. I did change. But only for a short while. I don’t know if there’s ever a cure for this. If I’ll be able to surpass such dull and pitiful phase of my life every time it happens. 

It’s a good thing I find solace in tomorrow. As long as I get to open my eyes after a night’s sleep, I guess that’s a sign that there’s still a chance for change. I am constantly hoping that any day, that catalyst that I’ve been waiting for will show up. Light up that part of me that’s been drowning in darkness. Maybe, I’m wrong. For waiting for something like this to happen but I feel like that’s all I have, if nothing else. Hope.

Indeed, I’ll never lose hope and tomorrow’s another day.

Best,

Ardent Wayfarer

Time Flies

Huntington Library, Arts Collection, and Botanical Gardens

It literally does, doesn’t it – whether you are having fun or facing challenges. Time flies really fast. Especially for us, humans.

Human life is fragile and fleeting.

As cliche as it may sound, one must truly live in the moment while treasuring those special memories we’ve had in the past.

We should live like a child. They spend time without thinking of actually spending it. They are spending it on things that’s worth something to them. Children live their lives in a quite predictable and straightforward manner. They express whatever it is they are feeling – the way they appreciate simple things, the way they laugh on small stuff, the way they cry whether it be because they are happy or sad, the way they are curious to things around them, the way they play, their innocence, charm and spirit. We should, in a way, live like them.

Can you remember those days when you didn’t give a damn on what other people think, so long as you are doing what makes you happy? Can you remember those days when you are taught what is right and wrong; and you strive your best to do the former? Can you remember the days you spent wondering on how things are made or how things work? Can you remember those times when you are full of life? Remember those days when you get knocked down but you just getup right away and you learn to do better?

Time flies, right? So let us take a small step back and learn from the younger versions of ourselves. Maybe, just maybe, we’ll be able to live a little better.

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Playful Kids

Best,

Ardent Wayfarer

Alone’s good too

Santa Monica

Alone; A word most people would want to avoid being – whether it be eating, watching a movie, shopping, traveling and what not. Doing things alone may seem sad and boring at first but hear me out when I say doing things all on your own has it’s own advantages and perks. Take it from someone who’s been there and done that; Take it from me who have eaten, watched a movie, shopped, hiked and traveled in a foreign country alone. And just for the record, I have awesome friends. Haha!

It’s just that I have encountered circumstances that led me to do all those things for the first time. You know, there are times when you are just too afraid/hesitant and cannot muster the strength to try out new things or face problems, the universe will do the work and put you in a situation where in you have no choice but to just do it. Have you ever experienced something similar to that? Life’s one great nudger. 

where everyday we almost make contact with another person – be it a family member, a friend, or a stranger – a moment alone can make a huge difference. Wherein you can do things in your own pace without a care in the world. It’s important that we are able to detach ourselves every once in a while (probably often) in this like/follower-driven society. Doing things alone can boost your confidence and will definitely give you a better sense of independence. Because you will be taking charge of things, literally.

Generally speaking, as cliche as this may sound, we always have a choice on things. Whether we’d feel sorry for being alone or choose to make the best out of the situation we are in. So, when life gives you that gentle nudge, be sure to take charge and face it with all your might. As the saying goes, might as well enjoy. 🙂

Best,

Ardent Wayfarer

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Puerto Princesa, Philippines

Sometimes it just hits you; and it hits you hard. “It” pertaining to what you may refer to as a drive or motivation, a purpose one has, a reason one makes – to either make, do, or even avoid things.

I had it coming. I just didn’t know when – I lost this particular purpose of pursuing something I should have pursued a long time ago. But now, that purpose has returned. I wasn’t looking nor was I waiting. I thought I’ll never have it again but suddenly I realised it came back. And it came back naturally.

I guess some of the motivations we have in life are innate. That we are born with the purpose to live driven by love and sometimes motivated by this inherent thirst for survival. Impulses so immanent, that once lost may find its way back freely.

If you have lost your drive, forgotten your purpose, or squandered a reason you have for doing or pursuing something and you are having a hard time retrieving it. Spent countless of hours looking for it.  If so, my dear friend; maybe all you have to do is to stop – and wait. Let that spark find its own way back to you. Let your heart naturally remember that purpose you once had. Let your brain remake the reasons you once thought of.

More often than not, faith and patience is the strongest weapon we have.

So have more of it. Let’s all do.

Best,

Ardent Wayfarer

Hey, It’s 2016!

New year

Yes, It is. 2. 0. 1. 6.!!!  Time sure flies when you’re having fun, right? 😉

First of all, let me all greet you a Happy Happy New Year! Cheers! Second of all, let’s all greet 2016 with a grateful and hoping heart!

This past year was one hell of a roller coaster ride. I believe it’s the same for everyone else. We all share a common thing or two – we all have at least one common experience – may it be landing a new job, falling in love [again] [and oh, by the way with same person as last year] *Damn our hearts*, unforgettable trips and celebration with your buddies, getting into arguments or fights with your loved ones, and so much more.

I just know that we have gone through a lot of downs in the past year but I’m sure as heck that we had more up, crazy-good, and unforgettable moments.

I am proud and humbled that we were all able to surpassed and lived through 2015. We may have failed at a couple of things, maybe tons of things last year. But hey, that’s what 2016 is for – to right the wrong, to learn from the past mistakes, and ultimately use it in the present for the benefit of now and of course, the future. 

That’s why let us all do our best in making 2016 as the best year of our lives. Let’s all strive to do better. To be better. Let’s always seize every moment, my dear friend!

Here’s to more crazy, fun-filled, and blessed year!

Best,

Ardent Wayfarer

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PPS. Excuse my selfie. By the way, a fun and cool trivia – According to Filipino Superstitions, wearing any polka-dotted clothe will bring prosperity for the coming year. No harm in believing your old folks’ sayings. 🙂 Again, Happy New Year! All the best this 2016

This season, to the next

Christmas Tree

Is it true that when you grow up, you feel a little less Christmassy?

I am a 22 year old professional living with my brother in a small condominium in the middle of the busy business district. For this particular year, Christmas seems a little bit less happier. Don’t get me wrong! We went home in the province and got to spend this holiday with our relatives. We had quite a night. A small feast, a few beers, and lots of games.

But yes – despite all the smiles and laughter, there’s a small voice inside of me saying things could’ve been better. Well yeah, if I think it through, we may have a small family problem that got in the way of celebrating this season. However, I know deep inside that this is not the only reason as to why this season feels a little less brighter.

I have been seeing memes on Social Media discussing this very same topic. Among the post I saw are the ones depicting that I am feeling this way because I got a bit older. Heck with that argument!

The spirit of this season, in my opinion, should be celebrated joyously throughout our lives whether it be that in a stage wherein we’re a toddler, a tween, or even an old crippled man.

The season of giving is ageless and so should the people celebrating it. We should still all get giddy when receiving gifts, we should all be ecstatic on the eve of this season and the feast that we’ll be having. We should put effort in giving out gifts for our loved ones. We should all together celebrate Christmas with smiles in our hearts.

Writing this, maybe it is just really because I am a bit frustrated in life as I am going through some personal dilemma and that my family’s going through a bit of a tough patch but nevertheless I promise to celebrate next year’s Christmas with a thankful heart and a happier soul!

Happy Holidays!

Cheers,

Ardent Wayfarer

Contentment

Art

To find serenity in the middle of a raging storm. To find a needle in a stack of hay. To see the light in the dark. To find happiness amidst trials and problems. Such is the task of finding contentment in this egotistical and materialistic world of ours.

Now a days, most of us would hunger for approval. Many would thirst for compliments. And the rest would probably satiate their contentment through monetary and extravagant things. A problem, I fear, is so rampant and normal. Our society tends to overlook this culture of materialistic contentment, making it worst – each passing month or year.

I believe the root problem is that people don’t realise how blessed or just how much they have compared to others. We should always try and look at the bigger picture. I am not saying that we should always compare ourselves to others but let us try to be aware of them. Let us look and observe. Let us check on how little do they need to survive and how are they able to put those genuine smiles on their faces. Afterwards, try assessing yourself, your standards. Do you really need that much? Do you really want this stuff? Let us contemplate on the things we have observed.

Now,  I think we are face with a question which is what do we do to end this vicious cycle? The answer and solution lies in our hands. As cliche as this may sound, we are the solution to this seemingly pitiless hunger of empty contentment. By trying to look at things differently, by trying to appreciate the smallest of things or acts done to us, can we only find genuine contentment that would satisfy our very soul for the longest of time. If there’s one thing I learned so far in this life, it’s that – We can only feel truly contented when we were able to give ourselves fully to others.

An Endless Chase

Baler Philippines

We tend to look for comfort in the midst of a bustling environment. Well, I did anyways. I suddenly had an urge to look for tranquility.

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In my current situation – A peaceful mind and a serene environment is what I long for. I aimlessly chase what seemed to be an impossible journey. Especially today, wherein we lived in a world where everyone tends to multi-task and be haunted by their busy schedules. Before coming back from japan, I prayed and hoped for a good vacation this year. Then, the universe conspired – lo and behold, this year’s summer was (and is still) different.

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A jump start to my awesome journey was a trip to the “Queen City of the South”, which holds a very dear place of my heart as I started my young adult life there – when I just graduated from college, followed by small trips up north in Luzon and visited beautiful places such as Bataan, Pampanga, and Subic. And sandwiched in between these short excursions are the most unforgettable ones – my beach spree that started from Zambales, Boracay, to Borawan and finally to Baler.

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And in those I trips, I found my tranquility – the elegance of the sun setting by the seas, mountains and trees. Sunsets for me, have these unparalleled beauty. They might depict an ending but it also signals the start, the start of a beautiful and sometimes starry night. The colors of the sky is what I liked the most. The different shades of red. The bold and light colors slowly forming what seemed to be a hombre sky. I always look above and beyond. I wonder. I contemplate. I am amazed. Always in awe of Mother Nature’s sophistication.

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Puting Buhangin, 2015

 

I will forever hold it dear in my heart, this adventure that began on a simple thirst of peace shall now be considered an endless chase.

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Baguio, 2015

Aesthetics of Hoping

“Hope is the thing with feathers. That perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words. And, never stops at all”Emily Dickinson

I believe the aforementioned quote fully embodies the true essence of hope/hoping. It is an ethereal occurrence that lies in each and everyone of us – resting deep within our hearts and without fail sings songs of courage without lyrics, but still, we fully understand the message it wants to convey. And it truly truly, never stops at all. Not at the expense of challenge or obstacles the tests the vulnerability of our being human.

It is the beating hearts of our souls. Our dreams and aspirations. Our wishes and our prayers. Hoping encompasses love, passion, depression and hatred.

The comeliness of hoping brings about the best in everyone. Giving light amongst our darkest time. Shredding deceit thus showing honor and truth. And ultimately, pours out love into a pot of hatred.

That my friend, for me, is the truest substance of Hope.

Love always,

-ardentwayfarer

Journeying to the Unknown

Undeniably, our world – earth, is vast. There are a  hundreds of emotions to feel, thousands of places to explore, millions of things to experience, and billions of people to meet. Imagine doing all those in one life. Impossible, right?

Now, picture all the places around you. Picture all the things, around you, you have yet to experience. Think of all the emotions you want/ed to feel. And, see all those people surrounding you and those you know that you wanted to meet. Imagine doing those in one life. Doable, yes? How long? Maybe 10-20 years or more, or less.

After which what are you going to do? What’s on the other side of your comfort zone? How about those other emotions you have yet to feel, places you haven’t seen, and the things and people you haven’t seen or even met?

The irony of life. It offers so much, yet gives so little.

That is why, as what most people would say or advice, we all just have to make the most of everything we have. Whether huge or small, we should savor every moment and enjoy everything while it lasts, so eventually, you’ll have something to remember and share. You just have to balance the ratio between your dreams and expectations. For remember this, a particular traveler may have traveled thousands of miles across the globe and experienced a dozen of stuff already and still isn’t satisfied. While on the other hand, another traveler may have only been to a place or two and be fulfilled as if he had been to everywhere before.

In my opinion, for you to be able to seize our vast world in the best possible way is that – one should muster enough courage and have a strong faith to be able to journey into the unknown, to eventually meet people of different culture, experience priceless moments, feel the untapped emotions, and ultimately be to places you’ve been dreaming of or never imagined to be traveling in to.

So my dear friend – Here’s to the future expeditions.

Cheers for the unknown people, feelings and experiences you will eventually get to meet, feel and do.

Love always,

-ardentwayfarer